This book describes the life of an ordinary woman with an extraordinary life. Willeke Meijer was born in 1959 in Rotterdam and as a 7 year old girl she was rented to pedophiles by her own mother. As a teenager girl of 16 years old she entered into a relationship, that resulted into a marriage. At the age of 18 her first daughter was born. The relationship culminated into the arrest of the father on account of sexual abuse of his own daughter. After divorcing this man she entered into a relationship, that did her end up in a horror story of extremely serious and gross physical and sexual abuse. During this relationship her second daughter was born. But this relationship also ended with the arrest of this man after alleged sexual abuse of his stepdaughter. After this she entered into a relationship with a younger man, with whom she also married, and who pulled her along in a negative spiral of drug use. During this relationship she got to know a friend of her husband’s family. This elderly man set himself up as a compassionate listener, who seemed to be open for all her life suffering, what she had experienced from her early childhood years on. But he appeared to act out of self-interest and misused the trust she had giving him by pulling her into a violent SM relationship. After the man also raped her daughter, that was to her the last straw that broke the camel’s back. She entered a sort of daze and killed the man with help of a friend of her then-husband. After her arrest she was sentenced to twelve years of imprisonment. The book describes subsequently the years of detention, in which after a while she became the victim of the tunnel vision of prison personnel and prison directors and wardens. It became a nightmare whereby at a given moment she was saved by the intervention and interference of the at the time Group chairman of the Socialist Party in the Second Chamber of the Dutch House of Parliament, Jan Marijnissen, and the well known publicist and journalist Bert Voskuil. The book also describes the relationship between her and her two daughters of which she says herself, that “ because of her act and her conviction she not only lost her freedom but also her two daughters”. The book also describes some current affairs, which occurred after her detention. Among which the upbringing of her two grandchildren, her art and the request of Dutch documentary filmmaker Jessica Villerius to act as the main character in an episode of a documentary series called “Murderous women”. This was broadcasted on May 9, 2011 by the Dutch television channel Net5 in the Netherlands. After this she appeared several times in publicity in the media. Thus an interview with her appeared in the annex called “Woman” of the Dutch daily newspaper the Telegraaf ( The Telegraph) on September 10, 2011 and she was asked by the Dutch television channel NTR to appear in the television broadcasts on October 5, 2011 and March 21, 2012 of the then television program “5on2”. Worth mentioning is also, that already in 1999 a television documentary was made about the experiences of Willeke Meijer during her period of detention, named “Met voorbedachte rade” ( With premeditation) . This documentary was at the time made by Christine van der Aar and Remco van Westerloo and which was broadcasted by the Dutch television channels SBS6 and Net5. The book “My youth murdered” is a gripping story about a woman whose life path wasn’t always a bed of roses. Her motivation to put this all on paper is, that by doing so she hopes to open people’s eyes for the suffering that can be done to children and women. And to motivate people, who witness this, to actually intervene or to indicate offenders to the police. So victims do not make the mistake, that unfortunately she herself did make at a low point in her life. The book is packed with photos and fragments from original documents. A book well worth reading!